Day 21 – Weight Loss

Everyday I am met with a blank page and think, I have no idea what to write and then it starts to come to me. I had a good day – I have managed to get home yesterday for a few hours, it was lovely to see Isabelle who I had not seen the week before as she had a cold and to spend time with Rowena, Tessa and Mark.

The girls have been so supportive, Tessa without any prompting did all my pj laundry and had it all ready for my return and has been looking into scars and has bought me some bio oil which is supposed to work miracles on scars, so I am religiously using it on the bits of scars I can get to. Rowena managed to help me in the bath the other day and was so sweet in washing my hair, I am not supposed to get my PICC line wet, which is in my left arm and this makes it awkward to wash my hair. She said I had done it enough times for her. Isabelle is so like Mark; Rowena, Tessa and I were laughing as it was cold and wet and we thought that Mark and Isabelle are happy to take the dogs in these circumstances and then wash them because they are smelly (although I don’t think Mark would do the latter) and the other girls are less keen. She is also a great cook and enjoyed cooking the Sunday Roast each Sunday.

It has been nice to be on this ward as the lady opposite is on the same system as me and so it is good to compare notes, however I think my output from the fistula has dramatically reduced and hers has not. So a good sign for me and a poor sign for her sadly. This is the first stage and the second will be whether or not I can eat. It has been extraordinary I have not felt hungry at all. I guess when the body is getting all it needs then hunger is irrelevant. I have lost quite a bit of weight a stone and 2lb and still going down. The irony of all of this is a healthy BMI is only 5lb away for me and by being ill I will achieve my goal!